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Re: Need to talk to others by dolly

(Score: 1) on Dec 21, 2005 - 01:07 AM

Me again... I don't know if my post's are helping anybody, I sure hope so.
I feel if I keep writing, they will help me. No luck so far. Although I feel I am getting closer. Tomorrow nite I will attend my first NA meeting. I pray I can connect with someone there. I am going alone and I need to feel differently when I leave. (mentally) I hope the path I am taking will help someone else, along with me. My body will be there .......where will my strengh be?...............again I need a friend.

Re: Need to talk to others by Sally

(Score: 1) on Dec 21, 2005 - 02:12 AM

dolly ... that's great news ... going to NA. i hope you connect with someone quickly... find out about a sponsor when you get there. you will have to go to several meeting before you start to get anything from them. at first you may feel nervous, anxity, shy ... you have get used to it yourself to become comfortable. sometimes even go to different meetings until you find a group you "click" with.
you will find your strength if you keep going. it will take a lot of self control at first. a sponsor will be a great help with this. it sounds like you are going in the right direction. after the meetings get more routine, you can settle down and consentrate on your recovery. best of luck to you.

Re: Need to talk to others by darkangel

(Score: 1) on Dec 21, 2005 - 11:03 AM

Hey Dolly,

You've got a friend in me. If you need to talk just email me. This is the first time I write to anyone on this site. I originally became a member in my endless search to help my addicted boyfriend, since then I started using too. Its been about 6 months since my first time. Now Im all alone and lost I know I can do it by just staying away form the evil drug but it just makes things so easy (temporary). My God what will become of me?

Re: Need to talk to others by ELIZABETH

(Score: 1) on Dec 21, 2005 - 07:35 PM

HELLO DOLLY, THIS IS ELIZABETH. THANKS FOR YOUR COMMENTS. I AM GOING TO PRAY FOR YOU AT YOUR NA MEETING TONIGHT. WHAT YOU'RE DOING IS SO BRAVE AND STRONG. ONE DAY AT A TIME. I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU MORE. COULD YOU TELL ME MORE ABOUT WHAT CRACK FEELS LIKE AND WHY IT FEELS MORE TO ME LIKE J.A. JUST STOPPED LOVIING ME? I AM HERE FOR YOU. YOU MADE THE BEST STEP TONIGHT- DON'T GIVE UP. I AM HERE FOR YOU. ELIZABETH/

Re: Need to talk to others by kacey

(Score: 1) on Dec 24, 2005 - 05:39 AM

hi dolly I'm in a similar situation. My ex left town for three weeks and i didn't do any crack
two days after he came back i did it with him again
I feel like an idiot. I have children. it's almost christmas and i don't need this neither do they.i started doing it when i met him every time i'm away from him i don't do it. maybe i have ot leave town?

Re: Need to talk to others by AUDRA

(Score: 1) on Dec 24, 2005 - 10:33 AM

Hi all. This is my first time here. I to, have been using for a very long time and I know I need to quit. I have two very beautiful children and a good working husband. We almost lost our house to foreclosure because my husband didn't work that much this year and of course the money we did make or get in unemployment benefits, we used to buy other stuff (if you know what I mean). We would buy groceries, pay our cell phone bills (you have to have a phone to make the call) we would pay our car payments (have to have a car to go pick it up) and we had money for gas to go to work to make money to buy the shit. I feel so guilty all the time but I still let it get the best of me and then the next day after I wake up with a severe hangover I feel guilty all over again. I know I do it to myself, I just can't be strong enough to stay away or keep those thoughts out of my head. I would like to go to NA but I am afraid to go by myself. I doubt I could get my husband to go with me. I have one other friend I could ask but I doubt she would stick to it (she uses too). I need to connect with someone who knows what I have to deal with on a daily basis. I dont use every day. Maybe 1-2 times a week (too much). I always say "thats it, I'm done! Then I go for about 1 or 2 weeks and I start thinking about it , craving it, getting headaches because I am literally craving it. It starts to consume all of my thoughts. I have finally realized that I cant quit whenever I want. I'm addicted, and I cant do it on my own.

Re: Need to talk to others by Kazza

(Score: 1) on Jan 07, 2006 - 01:53 PM

Hello Dolly, So, how was NA? Do you think it may help you to find your spirit to help yourself. I'm really scared to face my problem - you're really courageous to go out and seek help. Take care all.