I just joined up today because Im looking for some advice and don't know where else to turn.I started taking drugs about 4yrs ago and cocaine about 2yrs ago and up until february things were very bad because of it, spent thousands, lost friends &got my final ultimatum from my sister and best friends. I tried stopping then but found the withdrawal period very difficult so started using again, but not as much as I had been and none of the people who would be upset and mad found out. However, the other night I went on a 2 day bender and nearly ended up in hospital, it scared me and I swore never again but I know its amazing how quickly I tend to forget about how bad I felt. I dont really know what Im trying to ask but I know my heads justifying continuing on without seeking help, saying this isnt a problem and this time I'll be the one in control so maybe just an outsiders perspective would be good to hear!
Consider that your addiction to cocaine is moreso a mental addiction then a physical one. Users experience very little to no physical withdrawal while abstaining from cocaine, but most certainly the mental urges to use can be
relentless. If you can not control your urges to the point of not using, how can one figure on controlling use period. Justifying your use is the same as allowing yourself the excuse to use. Givng into the urge to use is giving in, or better described as giving up your control to the addiction.
Educating yourself on the risk to your health from using, should be enough for you to want to abstain from the drug completely. Occasional use, even one use leaves the door open for disaster.
When you take into consideration that cocaine is "HIGHLY ADDICTIVE," it doesn't make sense to build a false sense of securuty that limited usage depletes the addictiveness, or the risk to using.
Justifying any use at all is putting yourself in jeopardy for continuing the cycle of abuse, which means that you are NOT the one in control.
You have found a good place for support and information.