help me with this crack demon in uk

jodyboy · Newbie

i am soking everyday.... i go out with my friends shoplifting every day and make about £70 a day ($140 approx) all of it goes on crack , my partener hates it but the problem is that her step father is a crack dealer and i owe him money, he is reluctant to sell to me but is nervous around me and give in continuously..... i need and want to stop but every day is the same... wake up.... call my pals.... go out theiving.... sell my goods in london.... buy gear from yardies in london or wait till i get home(in laws live four doors from me) i am gonna lose everything real soon ... really i dont know how i havent already my g/f is really tolerant, she sokes crack too... but only when i bring it home. i am considering suicide as an option as i beleive it will be an gauranteed fix as i have let everbody down constantly throughout my life and that is one thing i wont get wrong this time round...... help me please. jody

lilbubba49 · Devoted

Dear jody,Please get help,call someone.the crisses line,ca or na tell them how desperate you are.Suicide is not the answer,think of all the people who love you and will have to go through all the heart break after your gone.Once your gone the pain is over for you but it will live on in the hearts of your family forever,believe me I know my ex husband took his own life and left his three beautiful children too suffer.It has been many years but the kids still miss him and suffer the lost.Please get help,it will get better if you just reach out to someone.Come here and post often there are alot of wise and caring people on this site .Ive been comming here for two years ,Im a addict,my drug of choice is crack,Im going to rehap on monday and I know my life just gets better and better each day im clean.I hope you will not do anything crazy and give life a chance without the *censored sh_t.You will see it does get better one day at a time.
Hugs to you if I could give you a hug in person I would but I will be thinking of you.
Diane

rick_h · 12 step Recruit

Hey there Jodyboy,

Welcome to this forum. I have been where you are and thankfully didn't commit suicide. Something had to give - that something was me. I had to radically change my life (people places and things). It sounds like alot but really I gained far more than I ever gave up. For me it took NA and AA meetings to get me any length of sobriety and clean time. I have been clean from crack since July of 06. Its not easy but it has been the most rewarding thing I have done for myself. Its you that has to take the step though - you have to reach out. It is out there (if you put half the effort into getting and staying clean as you do into your using lifestyle you will be amazed at what you can do)