Well Better now than never.

nomore · Resident

I have been dry over a wek now. I am working towards being dry for the rest of my life.. I like not haveing the driving force to go get me some do me some dope. I still have a craving or 2000 cravings but i fight those by doing things that are good for myself or my family. I still hate hearing my little girl say you home mommmy everytime i leave the house cause she aint sure when i will be back i hope to correct that with time and building a truust with her again. I did a progect craft with her today we had fun. I just have to remember that there is a life that does not evolve drugs and that yeai tooo caan be successful. I almost have my associate degree biut i letthe drugs take me for a ride.. I hope that next semester i will be strongerand able to complete that degree.. I am also looking for more permanent wor. $0 hours a week would be a plus part time is leaving too much time on my hands and not enough money in my pocket. So my story is that i write my frustartions out here and put my fears out here and in my life i work thrpough them. I willlet the drugs go and gain my life in return iwill not look back but track forward.. I have a long road togo but a beautiful journey to unfold. Laughing

pause4poetry · Moderator

Dear nomore,

I am proud for your accomplishments and your efforts. What a postive outlook you are gaining, I am hopeful that your strength and determination will bring you to a place that prove well worth all of your efforts.... glad you are here sharing with us...

Wishing you continied Strength and Peace...

freedomisprecious · Forum Veteran

Its hard to stay clean for a week. But when you see it the way you do...grateful to be where you are, chances are so long you stay that way, and keep a positive thankful attitude as much as humanly possible you will suceed day by day at fighting these demons that lie within. But there are also places within my heart that have yet to be seen with my own eyes and feelings. And I look forward to seeking that each and every day I wake. I have not smoked crack in 2 years, and have been clean from all substances for 18 months. I can tell you, my first year, I had cravings. I had nightmares, I had he|l to conquor, but the he|l I had just walked out of, was somewhere I had no idea I would ever look behind me at. I always seen it right there in front of me, blocking my every move, thought, action, feeling. AND DIDNT CARE, UNTIL I FOUND ANOTHER WAY. I am proud of the effort you have put here into this site, and more so the sincerity you have given yourself the opportunity to be at peace with. I wish you the ground beneath your feet, and the he|l to your back, for I know if someone else HAS, I CAN, AND YOU CAN...AND EVERY ADDICT THAT DESIRES SOMETHING OTHER THAN ADDICTION, CAN FIND THAT...AND CAN BUILD A LIFE OF PASSION FROM A LIFE OF PAIN. I am living proof. And now, so are you. Bless you. Keep us posted, and this site saved my life in times I couldnt see myself living with the struggle of recovery. Find your way through, and something else will be there to walk with you.Its not going to be easy, and there will be those days you only have a blurred vision of why you are where you are, BUT AT LEAST ITS STILL A SIGHT TO SEE, AND NOT A HARSH REALITY OF DARKNESS.

lilbubba49 · Devoted

You are doing so good and have a good outlook on things.Your little girl will come to trust that you will be home for her and will have to ask are you home mommy no more.I am proud of you.Keep up the good work.

flaggin · Helping Hand III

i am glad to hear that you are doing well, nomore, and was particularly happy to hear of your craft making venture with your daughter. our kids are so beautiful and the life we wiew through their growing eyes is a greater high than any drug can ever provide. i lost pretty much an entire summer with my boys. but we are coming back on track. very soon now i will again start sharing the responsibility of being a soccer parent with their mom. one of the games is a couple of hours north of vancouver and i will be taking the boys away for an overnighter. we'll probably work some fishing into it. getting involved again in their school curriculum. i look forward to all this. it's hard to believe that a period of time has passed where my children were not the most important thing in my life. but i, like you am finding my way back into the luxury of parenthood. i say luxury because there is nothing more valuable and rewarding than the opportunity to be a role model to these growing kids and to be given so much love in return. i wish you all the success, nomore, and i also hope that your daughter has many happy days ahead with the mother who loves her so.