CRACK IS DEAD WHICH PUTS ME AHEAD

flaggin · Helping Hand III

And I try, oh my Dog do I try
I try all the time in this institution
And I pray, oh my Dog do I pray
I pray every single day
for a revolution
And so I cry sometimes when I’m lying in bed
Just to get it all out what’s in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the
morning and I step outside
And I take a deep breath
Then I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
what’s goin’ on

Nikki-
i will yet reply to your monumental page of rage. i just want to say now though that a large part of my anger to you in that post, stems from what has been further insight by me, on a more personal level, just how cruel the addicts mind can be toward the one that loves them. i just think you can do better. i'll get that post done when i can.

lucyb · Helping Hand I

Bill-
You give me hope. I know its been a difficult road for you, so many times I would read your post and know where you were with your addiction, your words reflect your true self so well.
There were times I really worried that you would be gone from us, other times I could see the disappointment you had in yourself, then there would be some good posts, some funny belly laughing humor, some thoughtful insights, some incredible poetry, and that creative side that we get to see a glimpse of now and again.
And now we have a man who has conquered a beast, a tremendous beast; a man who is working again at a relationship; a man who a few months ago had yet to visit his new grandson and who is now BABYSITTING this beautiful little guy.
So Bill, keep the good times coming.
Be good to yourself and kiwi.
And c'mon, Billy has a family to support now, give the guy a raise!!

Love ya Bill!
Lucy

keepitreal · Helping Hand IV

I Love You! Friends

flaggin · Helping Hand III

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So Bill, keep the good times coming.
Be good to yourself and kiwi.
And c'mon, Billy has a family to support now, give the guy a raise!!

hey lucy, believe me, i try and it's not always easy. i do find it very strange to be where i am today. sometimes i think i have accomplished little in the fifteen years that i've been self-exiled to the west coast. but, i can't help notice this family growing and expanding outward from this body that has been so abused for so many years, never knowing really what it's purpose might be. what causes it to still live. can you imagine how many times throughout my life that i have simply felt discarded like a piece of trash by family and society alike.

life can be a quite interesting and fulfilling experience when we learn to treat the bad with as much respect as we do the good. I’ve always tried to gain something from everything, even from things that on the surface seem irrelavent to our journeys. not everything in life always makes sense in the emmediate moment, but still it doesn’t hurt to digest it, because it just might make sense at a later date. A lot of those moments of not knowing are all making sense to me now. Of course, my kids need me.

Bill

lilbubba49 · Devoted

Oh Bill,Those are awsome pictures of the grandbaby and your not so bad either.Glad to here your enjoying life and family,way to go.
Hugs Diane

keepitreal · Helping Hand IV

flagginthedraggin wrote:

i looked back over my thread trying to pinpoint how long it has been that i smoked crack. lynn, you might be better at locating that, if you're up to it. if memory serves me right, i almost done myself in on new years day, morning with an injection out of the eight ball of powder and so cooked up the remainder. i believe i bought a half gram of rock, once or twice after that. i think the middle of january sounds abaout right

Feb.13th Darling...lol

Boy oh boy...you sure do have a lot to say lately Very Happy

Hope all is well with you and yours!

Love You,
Lynn

BTW...Where did all that grey hair come from?...Grandpa...ROFLMFAO

lilbubba49 · Devoted

Way To go Bill,Im happy for ya ,keep up the good work.
hugs Diane

nikki · Devoted

What a beautiful baby zeth is and being a grandpa suits you.

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i was in a rage by the time one of my bosses showed up. i didn't just give him a peice of my mind, i rammed it down his gullet and choked him on it.

Hey bill, did you put on your white gloves with him like you did with me..............lol ROFLMAO

just a little humor.

Nikki

flaggin · Helping Hand III

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BTW...Where did all that grey hair come from?...

to the best of my knowledge, i think it grows out of my head

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Boy oh boy...you sure do have a lot to say lately

yaaaa!, and?

back at ya,
bill

flaggin · Helping Hand III

flaggin · Helping Hand III

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Hey bill, did you put on your white gloves with him like you did with me

oh, they were white gloves? all i could see was red. i still want to respond to your post, so tired lately.
hope you're doing well nikki and that i didn't leave any lasting bruises.(on myself that is)

bill

nikki · Devoted

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hope you're doing well nikki and that i didn't leave any lasting bruises.(on myself that is)

I am doing okay, no you didn't leave any lasting bruises, okay maybe a little but i will get over it.

Nikki

Admin · Site Admin

Nice pictures, however you do look different from the pics that were taken 3 months ago.

I have a story for you:
Conversation between two friends.
-Yesterday I made a bet with myself, that I will quit smoking.
-And?
-Lost the bet.
-What was the bet?
-Box of maduro cigars.

Methamphetamine is highly addictive. It does produce various health problems.

flaggin · Helping Hand III

nikki · Devoted

Hey Bill

I am still trying to figure out who Kiwi is.........are we eventually gonna find out who this lucky girl is.

Nikki

flaggin · Helping Hand III

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are we eventually gonna find out who this lucky girl is.

old father time will tell

lilbubba49 · Devoted

Ya Bill fess up,whos the lucky lady.

keepitreal · Helping Hand IV

keepitreal wrote:

For goodness sake Bill...whose kiwi?

nikki wrote:

I am still trying to figure out who Kiwi is.........are we eventually gonna find out who this lucky girl is.

lilbubba49 wrote:

Ya Bill fess up,whos the lucky lady.

Nikki...when we talked the other day
and you suggested that maybe it was Michelle,
I thought you were nuts...

but, after pouring over posts tonight...
I do believe you may be right.

flaggin · Helping Hand III

nikki · Devoted

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michelle has asked me if it was nikki.

Thats funny, michelle should read the post that you posted in my thread and she would really know that its not me.............lol

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but really girls, don't you think michelles a little too much of a goody two shoes for a guy like me

Sometimes the quite ones are the wildest ones...........you never know.

Luv
Nikki