Post subject: My drug use and its apparent consequences....
Hello im new here, ive been smoking weed pretty much everyday for the last 7/8 years, and started doing cocaine about 4 years ago, i have had weeks of non use and weeks where id been getting high every night, i only do it every 2/3 weeks now on a friday night sharing a gram with a friend.
I also smoke cigarettes on the weekend when i od coke/drink.
In the past ive done in excess of 3 grams to myself in a night, those nights lying there i wondered what i was doing to my poor brain...
I dont feel addicted at all however anytime i do it i always promise myself its the last time...just a few lines of sumone elses and im fine and in control, but if i got a gram in my pocket and its mine im finishing it. period.
I have definatly been addicted to it and now feel as if im not bothered if i ever do it again (cocaine) but i do feel very much addicted to weed.
I have also done exstacy/MDMA/MDA a number of times with a few real bad comedowns.
The question i have is not regarding help for my addictions, although i would like help with the weed and i freely admit i have a problem with mary jane.
What i was wondering is could my past cocaine use / excstacy use / cigarettes / weed contribute to the fact i keep losing my temper recently, like i could be building a kitchen cabinet or doing anything and if it goes slightly wrong i lose my temper and have a nervous breakdown breaking everything and swearing at the top of my voice...i really hate being like this can sumone help?
Last year was a bad one too i lost 2 friends and my dad and probably hit rock bottom when it comes to drug use. So i suppose this could be normal anger but i do feel as if im losing it sometimes and beocming a different person.
Dear chronic,
Welcome here,you are in a good place with lots of people to help and support you.If you are feeling suicidal Please ph someone and talk to them,the crises line or n.a.Remember suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.You might need to get in some counselling to talk about losing your friends and your dad and how its affecting your life.The anger could also be the drugs,but im not a expert,Im sure gene could give you lots of advice on your problems and point you in the right direction.Again welcome,i hope you stick around.
Hugs Diane
I think my problems are a mount of lots of problems so thats why it feels so heavy.
Your problem is that you prefer to see it as a problem. Can you tell what have you been trying as a solution?
_________________ Your Admin, Gene. -=People who ask our advice almost never take it. Yet we should never refuse to give it, upon request, for it often helps us to see our own way more clearly. =-
Hi, Chronic. I just wanted to know how you are doing. I read your post today, I hope you are better today than the day you posted it. Are you? Look, this life can be sh… sometimes but the alternative is worst. You are 23, man, the world is yours. It is just up to you to decide. It is very simple: it’s up to you. I am not using drugs, never did, so I don’t really know what you are going through. My b/f did coke, so I visit this site, learn some stuff and try to understand… I just think we all have our problems, our battles. Please, keep fighting. No matter how bad it is, just keep fighting. Good luck.
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