Boyfriend, used to be an addict!

DanielleSian · Newbie

My boyfriend used to be addicted to cocaine, really bad he had to give his car away to his dealer to pay his debts around £4,000! His parents disowned him and his family no longer speak (parents & grand-parents)! If it wasnt for me he prob still wouldnt speak to his parents it was only that he used to get upset that i said i would come with him to his parents home to make ammends! I didnt know him whilst he was on it all the time, so wouldnt know what to look for to see if he was sniffing or not!

At the weekend he had some to sell and he took some with a mate, i dont agree with it at all! It really upset me that he took it after all that has happened and he knows my feelings on it! I felt dis-respected, not only that he had done with it but that he had done it in front of me! I noticed Sat night that he looked very very pale and hadb the shakes!

We live together so i dont think he would be able to take it at home, but if im in the lounge with the tv on i wouldnt know if he was doing it else where within our flat!

He met me yesterday for my lunch hour and we had a long chat and i have told him he has until mid-jan to sort himself out in general not only with the cocaine or i am going to move to Spain with my dad and i will cut all ties with him! He assured me that he had only taken it the 2 times i know about, he swore on my life! And i trully beleived him!

But i was speaking to my best friend today and she said a few things that put doubt in my mind! She then told me that when me and her and our boyfriends were out 1 night My bf had some on him! and that he had taken it (according to her bf) but when i spoke to him he denied it and got angry askin how much longer i was going to keep this up! he then rang my best friends bf and spoke with him on the phone, when i later spoke to my best friends bf he told me the same story as my boyfriend! am i really paranoid or do you think when they spoke they agreed on a story! I really dont know what to do!

I personally think if you have had an addiction and have quit you can not have some of what you were addicted to! and not want more!

I know i have really rambled on but i need help am i paranoid or do you agree with me! I cant keep puttin myself & my boyfriend through this!