Right, i've been there done that. I'm bored of doing coke. I'm bored of it ruining my night by making me quiet and focussed on one thing and one thing only....where the next lines coming from. I'm bored of it costing me so much money. I'm bored of having to lie to my girlfriend.
Really, I think i'm more than bored. I'm worried maybe scared that im stuck with this s##t forever...
F##K THAT, I have friends that have been hard on the whitestuff that have given up and to see the change in them is motivation enough to want to stop. I have to stop. I will lose everything if I don't
I'm sure there are people reading this that want to know where to start. Well im starting here. Last time i did coke/ecstacy etc was Sunday 9th December 2007.
If you want to do this with me, let me know.
I'm going to succeed
We can help each other
Well, Benc. Iv'e read many of the stories stories on this site and this is the one that i am able to relate to. I DONT HAVE ANY IDEA WHERE TO START! I just know I want/need to stop. I just layed off for seven days and celebrated with a ball. (by my self). Pathetic. BTW this is not a typical guilt trip. I have a problem, but dont know what the f##ck to do about it. Im not looking for sympathy or anything...i just would like to hear how the last 20 something days have gone for you. Seven days was the longest for me in 3+ years. Im sorry if this is a bit too forward. but..what the fu#$k...desprate times.
Well, Benc. Iv'e read many of the stories stories on this site and this is the one that i am able to relate to.
well. cokehead, it's easy to see how this story, out of the many you have read grabs your interest.
benc, does clearly state in his first two paragraphs the all familiar rhetoric all active addicts adhere to....
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Right, i've been there done that. I'm bored of doing coke. I'm bored of it ruining my night by making me quiet and focussed on one thing and one thing only....where the next lines coming from. I'm bored of it costing me so much money. I'm bored of having to lie to my girlfriend.
Really, I think i'm more than bored. I'm worried maybe scared that im stuck with this s##t forever...
then in his third paragraph he incites team spirit with a wonderfully phrased 'pep rally' in which he literally grabs the bull by the horns....
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F##K THAT, I have friends that have been hard on the whitestuff that have given up and to see the change in them is motivation enough to want to stop. I have to stop. I will lose everything if I don't
now if that wasn't enough to get your juices flowing, he actually answers.....
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I'm sure there are people reading this that want to know where to start. Well im starting here. Last time i did coke/ecstacy etc was Sunday 9th December 2007.
your CAPPED QUERY.....
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I DONT HAVE ANY IDEA WHERE TO START!
sh*t, it's like he was reading your f*cking mind before you got here. (actually, i believe he's a salesman of some sort)
not slowing for a moment, so as not to lose your attention he actually provides you with the opportunity to initiate a positive course of action in your plan for recovery....
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If you want to do this with me, let me know.
and you have!
you know that's what i love about this site, there's a little something for everyone no matter what level of recovery one is striving for.
but as you have stated...
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desprate times.
demand desperate actions and you certainly exhibit a mind capable of making sound choices when it comes to buying into resources which will expediate your recovery.
congratulations!!
by the way? benc, summarizes by stating....
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I'm going to succeed
We can help each other
could you please inform us if there is some catch to obtaining the update to that last statement. is this where the 'paypal or mastercard' accepted comes in?
Hey, damn I didn't honestly believe that the next time i'd be writing here I still wouldn't have done any coke.....but....I haven't. It's hard to explain where I am at the moment. I don't want to sound like some smug self-interest person I just wanna tell you how it is and how i've got to where I am. I've done the ups downs ups downs for 8 years, for 2 years i've been bang on it.
Why I wanted to stop was because I was forgetting all the things that made me happy before, in fact I was simply running out of things that made me happy. When I was younger I always said I wouldn't do coke just ecstacy as I read once that when you do it you slowly lose interest in the things you've always loved. Obviously I ended up gettin on it, and it did happen, I did lose my love of so many things.
Ive been off it now for five weeks today including xmas and new year. Last new year and xmas I busted a lot of coke and i mean a lot and i didn't think in a million years i'd last through this new year and xmas. But I did. I had lines being racked up in my face but I didn't give in. One thing which has helped more than anything is that I am not drinking as much. Every time I got pissed the next thing on my mind was coke. Like when I eat and I smoke afterwards coke followed drink.
I still do drink but not as much.
My life has changed like you wouldn't believe. My work is improving, my relationship is dramatically improving, my everything is improving and im becoming so much happier.
IT CAN BE DONE. I never in a million years thought i'd get off this s""t. A very close friend of mine died from it. And for some reason I just carried on doing it, in fact I did more and because that didn't stop me I thought nothing would.
Anyone can get off coke. You just need a reason too. If you haven't got one then you'll just keep doing it. That said everyone is different, but anyone can do it.
There are so many better things out there then coke, things that will make you buzz much more. Normal things that I always saw as boring for the past 8 years all of a sudden aren't as boring.
Believe in yourself, im rooting for you
If you have any questions for me mail me i'll try to keep an eye on the forum.
Seriously though, I never thought id be here, clear, I never tyhoiught I would. You control your mind it doesn't control you. Just get control back
I'm with you guys. I myself have not used in awhile, but feel myself tempted. My husband has a problem with it and it is hard to stay clean while he's getting high all the time. As far as being normal again, none of us ever will be. I can tell a huge change in my husbands personality, and I'm sure I have changed too. But I have read with enough clean time you do "come back" to being as you were before. I think the only difference is that the temptation to use is always there. But after several weeks myself, I am not as paranoid and jumpy and distracted.
Hey everyone its been 6 weeks since my last post. I am still 100% clean, no pills no lines no nothing. I have got through the hardest bit of my life now and its amazing being this side of it, in 6 days it will be 3 months, thats a quarter of a year without coke. Go back 3 months and I would never have ever imagined that this was possible, I was a slave to coke like Im sure so many of you are. I had great times on it, crazy sex, big parties everything. But mnow my life isn't quite as exciting BUT it is so much better, im so much happier so much more in control, I love it.
I was so *censored F--> up and now im free, i did class a drugs for 9 years never thought id get off them I never thought id get off them. Its like my life has completely started again, all my friends are getting closer to me, my family are getting closer im getting on better with my girlfriend then I ever have.
Please use this as motivation, I know what you are going through, you can do it.
Change your phone number delete all your links to dealers, friends will understand just run away until your clean and then come back but stay away from those same situations...
GOOD LUCK, you don't need it you just need to know you can definitely do it because you can
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