Hello! I am 29 years old and have been having addiction problems foe about 10 years , I have had sober moments, But I always end up back where I started..I have made the first step buy telling the truth to my loved ones..AND myself most imortantly. I have the most beautiful little girl in the whole world. If I do not do something about myself and my addiction, I could lose her or die first. I have been sober now for 3 days..I plan to go to some open public mettings. But I am scared to death. So I got on-line looking for some first steps...I have been stripping for a long time with the excuse that I can do it and still take care of her, but most of the time I am too hungover to play with her...I have ruined many relationships. I have quit school, and just kepy stripping to suit a lifestyle that is not realistic for me. I need help, I don't know where to start or what to do..If I quit my job today I lose everything, if I don't I am right next to temptation. Please Help!
I hope I did this in the right place..But I made a start.
Sicerely, TT
You have found a good place for support and information. It sounds like you are doing your homework and taking a serious look at improving your life for both you and your daughter. Knowing what you want and that it is in your best interest to remove yourself from the lifestyle that keeps you in a place that you no longer want to be, take a breath and begin look for work options that support removing from your current occupation.
Being honest with yourself and your loved ones certainly is a great step in the right direction. Consider registering with your local job service to look at job options that are available for your consideration. Be realistic with what you can make do until you can find something that works for you.
Do allow your family to offer support with the knowing that you are the key factor in stepping up to the plate in order to make the necessaey changes that support the sobriety that you want to achieve.
One day at a time, one goal at a time all geared around seperating you from the lifestyle that leaves the door open to your addiction.
Do check for resources in your area that can help support you with your efforts. Know that being scared is natural when having to admit and face things about oursleves that we are not proud to own. Give it chance and have faith in yourself that you can overcome your addiction.
You may also want to check out resources that are available to you that will allow you to maintain your household and help with your finances while you continue your education.
I hope you will keep reading and posting.
Wishing you Strength and Peace,
Michelle
_________________ Positives create better results then Negatives
Welcome TT
Yes you have come to a place where you will find a huge cross section of compassion and tough love. You will be called on your crap and you will be encouraged for everyday clean.
First let me tell you from my experience you only have to change one thing EVERYTHING.
Hey I loved my job too. I worked in the film industry for a very long time I owned my own extras agency. I made a lot of coin A LOT. Making money for me is an addiction in itself. I had to get out of everything I had to get humble and face the reality that as long as I was in the same playground around the same people I would do the same thing. You say it yourself.
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If I quit my job today I lose everything, if I don't I am right next to temptation. Please Help!
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
I no longer work in the film or music industry, I have gained new skills and I still make good money today, I work harder that I used to and I had to go through a hard bumming smokes broke spell to get here. The end result is I am 10 months clean and I'm okay. Yes I have rough days and I struggle. No one said it was going to be easy. Unfortunately if you think you can continue working at the club and not get loaded as you said yourself you are right by the temptation.
When I had my agency I worked with many dancers and the girls that made the most money doing body double work and the only women I would hire were the ones that did not use. Those ladies made about $5000 every 3 days. So there's another career to get clean for. For a while you must put your recovery and your daughter first. That might mean going through lean times. You say if I quit my job today I lose everything... If you don't you'll lose everything maybe even your life then where will your daughter be?
Good luck!
Anastasia
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