Has it been so long?

lucyb · Helping Hand I

Has it been so long since I've posted that I can't even find my original post? I've never been a computer whiz so its quite possible.

Been trying to keep up here. Bill, aka flaggin, the progress you've made is incredible! I just wish the best for you and Nichole.

And so many I'm missing, Jenni, Diane, I saw freedom on the other night but haven't caught any of her posts, she was always such an inspiration so young yet so so wise.

Lynn, I see you here, strong and true.

And Michelle here and there, good to see you.

Steve, off working so hard at school, but still Steve.

And some of the newer devotees, I wish you well with your fight.

Just wanted to say hi. We are still hree, still in the fight and still losing.

Hubby doing well. Mark still not doing so well. Still not home, still working, still playing the role of "functional addict".

Not sure even what to do at this point. Just trying to stay healthy, trying to be emotionally well, not always working out too well.

Just wanted to acknowledge that I am still here, tho not very present. I guess just trying to live whatever normal life I can, just trying to give myself a break, but still drawn here, still in this life, still trying to figure out how I can make a difference in Mark's life, and still failing.

Lynn, hope Jacob is feeling better, hope you find a job, still think you should consider writing as an occupation.

To all those out there near and dear to me, I only wish you the best. Tho I may not always be here by word, I am here in heart.

Lucy

flaggin · Helping Hand III

thinking about you all the time lucy.
nice to see you drop in.

love, bill Rose

ps. heard from freedom the other day. she's doing 'wonderful'!

Jenni · Helping Hand I

I'm still here too. I guess it has been a while since I logged on though...forgot my password.

My dad is on maintenance and seems to be doing well. I spent Christmas with him and visited with some of my siblings. Sorry I missed you Lucy...seems like you had a lot going on.

I spent some time with my b/f as well. The first few days I was there, he didn't seem to be doing well. He visited his sister for X-mas and when I stopped through again on my return trip, he seemed in a much better frame of mind.

I guess I have stayed away because I have been feeling like it keeps me dwelling on his issues. I do visit the site usually twice daily and read...but haven't felt like posting. What can I say? I don't have anymore to say about his issues...and I no longer let them be mine. Obviously he and I are still involved. I still love him, but we each continue to work at our own separate lives at this point...friends.

I'm very busy with my professional life....which I really need to focus on in the next few months. He is very busy tooo...still figuring things out I think.

I've missed everyone too and wish everyone a very productive and joy filled new year.

-jenni