song material...

meltdownsky · Tenant

whatever's left...

reality was never that far away
but I'd always bet it wouldn't find me today
"giving up" was the last thing I'd say
but burning all my bridges...well that's the game I'd play

find myself
or whatever's left
how long has it been since I'd slept
and not dream of you...
not dream of you

I ran outta' time, a long time ago
reactions and distractions are all I know
the howling at the door? well that's just the blow
calling me back to the last place I should go

guess it'd been better if it didn't happen this way
and I'm still struggling everyday
to put it behind me, like everyone says
but 'cause of all the sh*t I've done, no one ever stays

for whatever it's worth, it's easier said than done
I'd lost my own way, coulda' happened to anyone
don't know how to feel or how long I've run
and for all my trouble, this race is never won

find myself
or whatever's left
how long has it been since I'd slept
and not dream of you...
yeah, not dream of you

lyrics by stephen franks
all rights reserved

meltdownsky · Tenant

Done with me...

got no feelings left to hurt
pretty much lower than dirt
I think I'm done but never sure
someone else can have this life
it's done with me

a piece of hope a part of the past
know just how long my luck will last
through waves of people I have passed
someone else can have this life
it's done with me

seen the bottom but couldn't stop
even myself I have shocked
and I'm still waiting for the bottom to drop
someone else can have this life
it's done with me

lyrics by stephen franks
all rights reserved

frogge · Resident

Your lyrics to your songs are so.......... I can't explain it. They just really touch my heart. Thank u for taken the time to post them. I really enjoy reading them.

BettiesVice · Newbie

"TEARS"

meltdownsky · Tenant

anymore...

can't worry 'bout tomorrow
barely made it through today
"third time's a charm"
I proved that wrong again

I'm tired of living in shadows
I'm tired of living a lie
I'm tired of the money I "borrow"
and I'm tired of wondering why

so now I know you don't love me
'cause you remember who I used to be
all I've caused was suffering
please...just don't hate me anymore

didn't mean to bring you along
as I drifted away
you used to mean everything
now you're just in the way

as much as I want to apologize
you'd just know it was another lie
wore out my welcome 'long time ago
when I chose this harder road

and when you're wondering
where the He11 did I go
I could never tell you
...you wouldn't want to know

so now I know you don't love me
'cause you remember who used to be
all I've caused was suffering
please...just don't hate me anymore

lyrics by stephen franks
all rights reserved

frogge · Resident

Mr. Meltdown, May I say u are a "WONDERFUL WRITER"... After reading your story and your lyrics... U seem to really be putting your life back together... My hat is off to u Buddy!!! Take care and let the lyrics roll... Peace my friend, Cat Cool

excrackerjack · Tenant

Stephen,
You break and overjoy my heart at the same time. Your writing is amazing. I am so glad you are channelling your energy this way. I am still concerned about you. I wish you would IM me or call me or leave me a messege and let me know where you are and what happened after the last time we spoke. Just another concerned buddy out here and an ear whenever you need it.
Keep doing what you're doin' (unless it's dope....) even then you know you could call me and I would never judge you.

I think at this point you know what a waste of time, energy and money dope is though and I don't think you would be writing such great tunes because you would be too busy focusing on your next blast and feeling guilty.. what a lousy trip and high dope is now huh?

Anyways my friend. Love your writing, want to know where you are physically and emotionally.

Your friend
Tasi
Peace
Peace

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meltdownsky · Tenant

no suitable ending...

doing the right thing should be easy to do
shame on me for all I've put you through
while riding a line of insanity or sobriety
always making it it harder than it has to be

tell me, do I look as bad as I feel
'cause I'm losing track of what's false or what's real
stranger's callin' me with plenty of more
as I am hiding behind locked doors
I keep on running but can't remember what for

so say your prayers, say'em loud
of so many things I am not proud
I've hurt myself more than enough
but since I'm so DUMB, gonna' have to be TOUGH

guess I should let it go, seems like it's got me
somehow convinced myself I'd rather be unhappy
a path of lies are I have found
so bored with this side of the ground

here again, I'm avoiding sleep
all I see in the mirror is stupid and weak
as the days go by, all that I know
for such a wreck this death is slow
left all alone with nowhere left to go

so say your prayers, say'em loud
of so many things I am not proud
I've hurt myself more than enough
but since I'm so DUMB, gonna' have to be TOUGH

lyrics by stephen franks
all rights reserved

keepitreal · Helping Hand IV

meltdownsky wrote:

no suitable ending...

doing the right thing should be easy to do
shame on me for all I've put you through
while riding a line of insanity or sobriety
always making it it harder than it has to be

tell me, do I look as bad as I feel
'cause I'm losing track of what's false or what's real
stranger's callin' me with plenty of more
as I am hiding behind locked doors
I keep on running but can't remember what for

so say your prayers, say'em loud
of so many things I am not proud
I've hurt myself more than enough
but since I'm so DUMB, gonna' have to be TOUGH

guess I should let it go, seems like it's got me
somehow convinced myself I'd rather be unhappy
a path of lies are I have found
so bored with this side of the ground

here again, I'm avoiding sleep
all I see in the mirror is stupid and weak
as the days go by, all that I know
for such a wreck this death is slow
left all alone with nowhere left to go

so say your prayers, say'em loud
of so many things I am not proud
I've hurt myself more than enough
but since I'm so DUMB, gonna' have to be TOUGH

lyrics by stephen franks
all rights reserved

Damn...That's really good...I like it

frogge · Resident

Just checking to see if u are going to post anymore song material??? It was sure great while it lasted.....

meltdownsky · Tenant

Came in from a rainy thursday on the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly
I turned on the lights, the T.V. and the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you

What has happen to it all
Crazy some would say
Where is the life that I'd recognize...
Gone away

But I don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world somehow I've got to find
and as I make my way through an ordinary world...
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence once prompted you to say
Pride will tear us both apart
So now pride's gone out the window cross the rooftop
blown away, left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me, crazy some would say
Where are my friends when I need them most
Gone away

But I don't cry for yesterday
In an ordinary world somehow I've got to find
And and as I make my way through the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Papers on the roadside tell of suffering and greed
Feared today, forgot tomorrow
Here beside the news of Holy war and Holy need
Ours is just a little sorrow

And I don't cry for yesterday,
In an ordinary world somehow I've got to find
And as I make my way through an ordinary world
I will learn to survive

and anyone in my world...
is everyone in my world

...so the last place on earth I thought I'd find inspiration would be a Duran Duran song, but this one truly speaks to me and I'd recommend it to all who are struggling.

flaggin · Helping Hand III

stephen,

if i walk into a wal-mart tomorrow and see your avatar on the front of an album cover, i can guarentee you that i will personally crap my pants. very good writing, man, keep it up, if it helps you through things. sorry, i haven't been keeping up on your thread, but glad to see you are still with us and turning some rough times into some creative and appreciated writing.

tasi is still up in the mountains and asked about you the other day. i'll fill her in next time i talk with her.

as jenni once suggested, we should all get together collectively and publish a book of writings which have graced the pages here. obviously a lot of good talent hidden behind our addictions. however, i've always found that my own best writings come through hardship and heart ache.

hang in there, buddy

flaggin

LadyDvyne · Resident

Hey

Stephen, LOVELY lyrics Smile

I couldn't depict it better myself... I remember I did write a song about how things were between my ex and I when I was using...

Think I may write something today about this weekends events... 3Gs in the room at one time - and this little chicken didn't touch a a spec Smile

Can't tell you how great the feeling is - I no longer feel that deadly hunger and everybody in the forum who helped me through it, guys, I can't thank you enough Smile

D x