I'd like to get some crack

pattern · Newbie

I really would. I sometimes wish I could be like my "boyfriend" and just go get an 8ball and sit there and smoke it to myself. Just drown out all of reality. Just numb myself to all the suffering. Just forget about all the B.S. It's not fair that he can just not give a crap about anything. Just get his rock and he's all good. Till it's gone that is...
And then you fell 1000X worse.
Yeah. But if someone handed me a ball right now, I would smoke it right up.

I'm pretty pathetic aren't I?

Admin · Site Admin

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It's not fair that he can just not give a crap about anything. Just get his rock and he's all good. Till it's gone that is...
And then you fell 1000X worse.
Yeah. But if someone handed me a ball right now, I would smoke it right up.

And then what? Problems will not be solved when you high, contrary it would be more difficult to face the problems after high. Problem solving skills are learned trough life spin, getting away from the problem by drugging yourself is a lame excuse.

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I'm pretty pathetic aren't I?

No, it more sounds like lost.

pattern · Newbie

Yeah. I guess it's just easy to say that because I know no one would just stop over and say happy spring, here's some drugs! I'm just stressed because... well because the person I love has an addiction to crack. And he had court tonight for a charge involving crack. But he hasn't spoken to me in 2 and a 1/2 weeks, and I'm worried about him. I'm trying to tell myself that I'm OK and can just live my own life with... but I really am worried about him, and I wish I could numb myself to it. Which I could do if I had drugs, but like you say it would only make matters worse afterwards. I can ease the pain though...without drugs. That's what I bought a guitar for. So I guess I should get off the computer and go play it (or try to...I'm still in the process of teaching myself)
Thanks for your reply. It helped.

frogge · Resident

I wish u luck Pattern. I'm praying for u girl!!!!!