Well what can I say? I’m alive and have a family with two boys (1.5 and 3.5 yo). I have a beautiful blonde wife with a nice butt…what more could any guy want? Well I wanted another line of coke.
And this is where it has got me:
One or two days a week I sneak around sniffing up a gram or two…
Doesn’t sound too bad, right?
But 3 years ago I was only sniffing a gram or two a year…
So you see…I’m not 100% positive, but it looks like I might be developing some sort of problem here.
I just did my gram for this week a few days ago…
And coming down (coming down is always hard) I kinda started thinking…more so this time because I snorted a 1 gram line…so I came down as hard as I went up…
I started thinking that coming down really sucks…might be better to just not come down. Then I realized that sometimes you have to say Whoa! On a downward pull…and that I never thought I had a problem because I always came down and went about my business.
But I would always do so knowing that in the next week or so I would have my little vacation again…
I went from hardly doing it 3 years ago to doing about 4 grams per month in the winter and about 8 in the summer months depending upon family and work load and money, of course!!
Luckily I never tried smoking it and from what I have heard, I don’t want to…
However I am here because many home projects are falling by the wayside, paperwork is a bit behind schedule…like: I kinda forgot to do our taxes in a few years…motorbike engines sit in my garage in pieces. The house mess used to bother me… (My wife is a pig-and I a neat freak) I used to clean when I had a chance (we are both self employed) I have kinda gotten used to the mess. Although relatively speaking not much of my time has gone to cocaine use, I feel it has modified my behavior enough to make me worried.
What really worries me is that I am close to the edge. So here I am…step 1.
Step 2 is to start reading again every day—like I used to a few short years ago.
Step 3 is to start doing all the stuff I have been putting off…
Ironically, it was cocaine that helped me quite smoking 2 years ago… (Not a puff since) I don’t smoke pot-- and also, these little white powder treats kept me off the booze for months… I have not had a sip in months now!
Now if I could just sort out this little misunderstanding Mr. Kane and I have developed, I would be the husband my wife has always wanted!
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