HI MY NAME IS SCOTT

cyberdude974 · Newbie

my problem is not that im addicted to the drugs as i live in a little town with nothing to do i mean i know it's not an excuse to do drugs but the only thing in this back woods town is a movie theater and i have very few friends and there all dealers and they give the drugs to me to try for free the first time so i get hooked easily my biological father also got hooked on drugs and alcohol real easy but its not like i do them all the time either i do X once a year coke anytime i have the money roxy's when i can get them for cheap and addrall because i've been prescribe it since i was 7 (adhd) now i know the simple solution is to stop talking to all my drug friends and take myself outta the loop but they are the only friends i have in this backwoods town and i cant seem to make friends with sober people and i have gone for for a month once to get a job and still could make ne friends is there something wrong with me; im 23 and what i make at work goes directly to my parents cause they need help with there bills but i always keep $150 so i can get and eight ball or whatever my drug of choice is that week which would usualy last me three nights but tonight i did it all then threw it up so what i asking for is advice to help stop this before it gets any worse

thanks for the advice
scott

deliciousswaggerdog · Resident

See if you can attend a local AA or NA meeting.
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pause4poetry · Moderator

Hi Scott,

Welcome

You are young.... I have
a son that is your age.
Your life as an adult is
only just beginning.

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“my problem is not that im addicted to the drugs as i live in a little town with nothing to do i mean i know it's not an excuse to do drugs but the only thing in this back woods town is a movie theater”

You begin by saying that your problem is NOT that you are addicted to drugs, but that you live in a small town, however you know that is no excuse to use.

It is only an excuse if you allow it to be, which is exactly what you appear to be doing.

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“now i know the simple solution is to stop talking to all my drug friends and take myself outta the loop but they are the only friends i have in this backwoods town

Consider that the loop that you are currently in could cost you your entire future. The path that you are choosing for the lack of anything better to do is a dangerous path that doesn’t simply let up on you because you decide “game over.” No ...no... it invades your logical thinking and hangs on well past the point of saying, “gee this isn’t fun anymore,” it stays with you, taking everything that you are willing to give up in the name of addiction. It can and will take your health, your self- esteem, your very last dollar, your family, your friends, and tragically your life.

Sure, it is nice to have friends, but please take the time to consider of the people that you are using with today are the same people that you hope to embrace in your future let’s say 5, or 10 years from now. Surely you have ambitions beyond where you are now. Although it may seems foolish for you to separate yourself from this group of friends, it would be foolish not to consider doing so.

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“i cant seem to make friends with sober people and i have gone for a month once to get a job and still could make no friends is there something wrong with me;”

This question I can not answer for you, but I can give you something to consider in trying to figure it out for yourself. It maybe that while you are associating with the users and drug dealers that reside on your very small town (we all know how small towns can be) that you are not giving yourself a just opportunity to make new friends. You have people that use, and people that don’t use. I feel that it is fare to say that people that don’t use, or have never used find it difficult to understand people that are willing to use. When we don’t understand something, especially if it is known to have negative consequences it can make us uncomfortable, and we tend to steer clear of situations that make us uncomfortable. So it could be as simple as trying to put the cart before the horse in a manner of speaking. I encourage you to keep trying, don’t give up on yourself, don’t settle just because that is what you have grown accustomed to up to this point.

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“im 23 and what i make at work goes directly to my parents cause they need help with there bills but i always keep $150 so i can get and eight ball or whatever my drug of choice is that week which would usualy last me three nights but tonight i did it all then threw it up so what i asking for is advice to help stop this before it gets any worse “

I am assuming that you still live with your parents. If so, is this because you simply have not moved out on your own yet, or because your income is necessary to help your parents out financially?

$150.00 a week goes to your drug of choice, and you don’t feel that your problem is that you are addicted?
Please visit the following link which is located in our Main Menu under cocaine/crack, cocaine and family : http://www.cocainehelp.org/mod-subjects ... eid-4.html

I encourage you to frequent this site, and keep reading and posting. Get to know the members, as well their personal stories, hardships as well as accomplishments. This is a good place for you to begin making friends, and healthy choices that will hopefully lead you to living a healthy and happy life. Consider it to be a worthy investment for your future.

Wishing you Strength and Peace,

Michelle

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