Hi all,I have never written anything about my addiction and I'm not sure what to do. I know this all must stop. I cannot keep this up.I have been using coke for about a year.Everyday! I keep saying I can stop when I want.Untill today I guess I never really tried.I just kept buying and using.Thought I was having the time of my life.I am a 50 year old woman with everything going for me. Soon to have nothing going for me.I tried to fit in with a new boyfriend and boy did I. Now he is on his way out. He was as bad for me as the drug. I am as addicted to him in the same form. In a very wrong way I blame him.Now I blame myself for lowering myself to that level.I am going to use my spirit to combat this 'thing' as soon as I can locate it. I know it's in there somewhere!If anyone can help or would just like to chat,please do.I need a friend !