Cocaine User Helping Hand :: Help for cocaine, crack cocaine addicted people. Information on Drug Abuse, Treatment, Recovery.

I just want to commend you on your site warning people of the dangers cocaine presents, and for providing a medium that should help people resist the pipe.
Having destroyed my life, I understand the continuing draw this evil drug has. Even though I have rebuilt my life, my career, family etc., I realize it is still going to be a lifelong fight to continue to be able to resist the draw this addictive substance has. What stops me from using again is the fear I have of going back into a jail cell, and losing what I have worked so hard to regain. On the one hand I can not face the chance of "getting caught". (The reason I think I am relying on such a poor rationale not to use is that all the time the drug is in the background saying things like, "ok, you don't drink anymore, you don't smoke, and you don't go out and spend a great deal of money on another things, so why not just put 40 or 50 dollars a side, and have yourself a little treat"). It is at these times I have to be very strong, and try to run through the whole using scenario in my mind, from the vicarious experiences of enjoyment, to the inevitable regret I always began to feel after about 30 months of using. Now I will feel good about resisting the draw, and after each time I resist, I feel better about myself, and more resolute not to ever again use.
However, on the other hand, I recognize again what a fierce competitor crack is, in that it keeps coming back into my mind again, and again, and again. It will appear in my mind, and I'm sure it is around somewhere, and I will wake up shaking, yet glad it was just a nightmare. Whenever I hear about the drug in the context of a film, in the papers etc., I know it's the drug just trying to present an excuse for me to "just do a little bit again". It resembles the character of a person who will kick another, when they are down. This is the lowest. I'm sure my story is little different from the millions of others, but I am now nearly two years since ever touching this crap, and would like to close my again commending the service your site offers.
I am also very interested in learning if there is any organizations in Canada I can join to hopefully help others keep away from this evil substance, as even now I continue to fight, and I'm sure this will help me both help others, and continue to help myself.
Sincerely,
Hamilton, Ontario, CANADA.