To have a additive personality, Maybe, maybe not. To close your mind of the things that hurt, to forget for awhile of the stress in your life, It feels good, The start is not so great in the body, It doesn't take on the need. No one really knows until its to late, and your already there. Maybe if the stress wasn't there at the time of, Maybe if the hurt wasn't so numbing, maybe if the feeling wasn't so great. It takes away the anxiety, pressure of everyday living, makes tasks seem so possible. Its all really ok for a while, no one expects what is really happening. All the sudden you need, not just want anymore. It takes more to get what your looking for, in your mind, it is not happening, you don't realize that there comes a problem with the goodness. The starting of the was the pain, the ending, Addiction.
No one explains that part to you, no one says what will happen to you when you don't have anymore after so long. Now what? Who cares? You are now considered a failure, an addict, a major loser. In your mind, Shame. Should you have known the consequences before hand, Not a chance. Why so many people think you have knowledge before it all starts, why so many people think it is so controlled in your way of living, maybe for some, not for the depressed, stressed. There is a problem before it all starts hidden deep inside, so deep even you didn't know it was so great. You found a solution, and later, another problem. We are the odd ones in society, We are considered the weak of the world. Not strong enough to say no, not able to be really as we are "HUMAN"
Looked down on like we don't need to be living among the strong ones who don't know about what is really going on in this life, only ignoring the reality of the situation. Saying you could stop and be normal, all that is what brought on the situation. It is not just for the weak, It is, as it is. Now what be sent away, find acceptance somewhere else, in the wrong place. Nothing can take away the hidden pain, the emptiness in the heart, the hyperness in the body. If it wasn't so great, it wouldn't have ended this way. I know for some, not for everyone. It is all different, not by much. There is a reason behind this, somewhere inside the person, not just an excuse. Before you judge the person, educate yourself of the situation. DO NOT CONDEMN. When the want is there just to stop, withdrawals are just as bad as the need, sometimes worse. Who knows that, just the person, not the other side.

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